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Posted: 8/19/2013

I am 13, I have friends. But I was still bullied. People just didn’t like me. Well some may, but half of them? No. When I was kindergarten, I would get slapped. I know, i’m too young for that. It gave me this sort of trauma. But I still manage to put a smile on my face. I was happy. Knowing I have a lot more to experience since that was only the beginning. When I was at primary, I was nervous. I grew up loving school. (well not really). I enjoyed it, but in the wrong way. I myself, bullied other people. It started when I was about grade 3. I was rude, selfish, conceited. I was influenced by my past. You know what the funny thing is? It feels nothing when you’re the one doing it, but when you’re the one experiencing it. It’s hard. very. Not so long, Im finally grade 5. I got bullied, again. Yeah, I admit. It was hard. It’s funny hearing stories of yourself clearly you didn’t even do. But I still put a smile on my face. You can call me sort of, uh.. loner? Well, I had friends. Lots of them, but they obviously disliked me at some point, I could feel it. I just couldn’t wait to graduate from that school. I really hate it. Finally, oh what i’ve been waiting for. Im finally highschool. Im all mature..grown..more knowledge & most importantly, i learned to respect. I can’t wait to start a new life. Few weeks later, i’ve made couple of friends. & I’ve made a couple of enemys. Im 13, and im like about only 4 feet tall. There would be this dude and he would call me a midget. It hurts. The whole class would laugh at me. I remember this one time, where I was about to sit down. Somebody pulled the chair, and I fell on my butt. It even gets worse, there’s this one time where I was walking out the classroom. These group of boys would trip me and all I remember is making excuse to go home and just cry about it. My life, is hard. I know its not that hard like what other kids experience. But really, everyone should know..

Im not perfect. Nobody is. I’ve had my ups & downs. Im a teenager. I swear too. I do bad things. But the most important thing is everyone should feel good about themselves. Everyone has the rights to stand up for themselves. Everyone is beautiful in their own way. You deserve more than that. The reason why I want to end bullying? Bully’s are the reason why there is no confidence in people, their unappropriate opinion. NO ONE IS SUPPOSE TO FEEL MISERABLE. Demi Lovato inspires me alot. When I saw everything she’s been through, I felt like I wasn’t alone. I wanna thank her so much for being such a great role model to everyone. She made me stronger. Although at times I still get really depressed. I want to seek help and escape all my problems. But it’s not that easy.

My message to bullies: Why do you do that? what if you were in the exact position? STOP BULLYING. We hurt. Your words hurt. You may think it’s not a big deal. But it is. You may say “everyone is entitled with their own opinion”. It may seem like it doesn’t hurt, but it really does.

By: Xhndra