A Message For Everybody

Posted: 5/29/2013

Hi, I’m Melha, I'm a teenager and I live in Europe.

I want to tell my story because I relly need to talk and I would like to send a message to everybody.

I was bullied at middle school and during my 9th grade.

I didn’t have friends -I was very shy, naive and too kind. I decieded to be friends with a group of popular girls because I didn't want to be alone with no friends.

At the beginning they were really nice with me but actually they were only acting. They were very mean and heartless. In 6th grade they started using me. I did everything they wanted me to do, I thaught i was just nice but then I realized that I was their little puppet but it was too late, i had to do mean things otherwise they wouldn’t speak to me anymore.

In 7th and 8th grade, things became worse: those girls and the people they hung with insulted me, humiliated me and judged me everytime in front of everybody. People talked behind my back, called me names, laughed at me, they said I was nothing, miserable, fat, ugly, that I was alone, that nobody will ever love me and that I will never have friends or boyfriends.

I was the second choice, the laughing stock. But the thing is, they don’t know how much words hurt. I trusted them, I thaught I could but they used it against me. So, I started to miss school, a lot, I was afraid to go back there, everyday I was crying in my room, I felt lonely, hurt and especially anxious, insecure and depressed.

In 9th grade they started ignoring me, they didn’t speak to me anymore, I was completely alone. Then the principle of my school got mad because I was missing too much school but it was the end of the year and I was going to change school so it didn’t really matter.

But there is something that those people forgot. It’s that what they were doing hurt me: I completely changed, I was -and I still am- sad, anxious, insecure, depressed, insomniac, and I feel like everybody now is judging me or telling mean things behind my back, and I can’t trust anymore.

I was sad and depressed during this whole period so now I feel like if I am happy again something wrong is going to happen, and I am angry against everybody, I can’t control myself, I hate myself because of them, I feel hopeless and like nothing, I starve myself and I have eating disorder because of them. I am so depressed that I cut myself. And I am not proud of what I’ve become.

To finish I would like to say that even if you have been bullied, you are stronger than anyone now, you must fight against all those diseases (depression, bulimia, cut...) and against bullying.

And all those people that bully - they should stop. Nobody deserves to be bullied.

By: Melha