When Someone Tells You That You've Changed

Posted: 4/26/2013

I've always thought I fit in. I sort of still do. I've always have had friends. If you didn't know me, you'd think of me as a spoiled teacher's pet, that everyone loves. No. That's not it. I have pimples overflowing my face. It's hard to walk around certain boys now. A boy whose younger than me walks to me everyday asking me why I have so many pimples. I'm always so embarrassed to tell an adult because he's younger than me. And a boy. It gets really annoying, also because each time somebody teases me, my friends aren't there. I have no idea if they would stand up. Hopefully they would. They've told me they've been bullied as well. And we are all teachers pets, and have lots of friends. 

But sometimes they aren't my friends. They talk about innapropriate subjects that only adults take  seriously. And they laugh. I don't. They josh around to each other thinking its funny. And all of us are religious. I realized one of my friends was going through the same problem. She hasn't told face to face, but each time an innapropriate concept appears, she is dead silent. Like me.

We both want to have friends, but those? I really don't know. I wish I could just be friends with the girl who knows what I'm going through, but it would be hard telling my mom this kind of stuff. My mom knows the innapropriate people. She thinks of them as friends. She knows their moms. It's scary. I'm always scared one day, I won't fit in, because I am not like them. 

Luckily, I was accepted to an IB program and I'll won't have to deal with them for much longer. But I will have faith. Although I am scared, I will not back down. No matter how cowardly I seem, it's right. It's me. It's being me. 'When someone tells you that you've changed, that just means you're not like them anymore.'

By: Anonymous