It Hurts

Posted: 12/17/2012

It all started in kindergarten.

I remember this girl had hand sanitizer and everyone thought that was cool. I asked all of the girls if I could use it. The girl who owned it said "no, you gotta know the secret password." Everyday I tried to guess what it was.

A year later I found out the password was that I was fat and ugly. In first grade, this girl called me stupid in front of everyone. I thought that was terrible considering I was young. And this other girl called me ugly. I was pretty lonely. I got to second grade and I was friends with this girl Sarah.

At recess she ran away from me one day and told everyone else to join her. They all ran away and left me alone on the playground. I asked them "wait up, why are you running from me?" No one answered. Everyone just kept telling people to run. They did a lot.

Then I was in 3rd grade and I didn't really get bullied much. After that, I wasin 4th grade and I didn't get bullied much then either. In 5th grade my two friends Emma and Teresa would always hang out with me. But then Teresa started to be annoying. We didn't like each other. Emma would stay on her side and it was really annoying. Emma stabbed me in the back. I got to 6th grade and this girl was really mean to me.

I'd get nervous going to art every week because she was there, and would make nasty comments. "your shirt looks bad today..... I HATE YOU." she would say things like that. She really put me down.

Then in 7th and 8th grade it was REALLY bad.

I'm in 9th grade now. People still bully me. But I got lucky. They aren't really in much of my classes this year. I also found an amazing group of friends. Of course people still talk about me, but its okay. This year got so much better.

I know what its like to feel sick to your stomach before school, to be nervous to speak, to be stabbed in the back, to lose friends, to be made fun of everyday, and to be told no one likes you.

It hurts.

But it all made me stronger and I wouldnt be the person I am today. Stay strong. It does get better <3

By: April