Locked Alone

Posted: 5/26/2011

I'm scared of what there is to come,
from heartache and neglect.
Why should I be afraid of it?
I have the love I get.

I don't know why I'm scared of it, 
I have my mom and dad.
They love me and the comfort me, 
Why do I feel so sad?

I do not want to come to school, 
I'm scared I'll see them there,
they laugh and talk behind my back,
It's just not very fair. 

The laughing and the bullying, 
it has to stop right now.
That is a choice I have to make, 
all by myself, alone.

I have no one to turn to now,
I fight the pain inside.
I'm scared I might go way too far,
My life is full of lies.

I have support right by my side,
they love me and they care.
I have to call out on my own,
no pain, no strife to bare. 

There is a person that I like,
She helps me make it through.
She cares for me and understands, 
what I am going through.

She comforts me and hugs me tight,
when I am crying hard.
I pray to God for her to know,
What's really going on.

I cut my arms with razor blades,
to dull the pain inside,
but that can only last so long,
I don't wanna be alive.

I cover up the bleeding scars,
cause no one understands.
It doesn't hurt, it just feels good,
I cover them with bands.

I do not know where I can turn,
so I can feel again.
I'm full of sadness, hate, regret, 
Why can't I say 'I can'?

I cry myself to sleep at night, 
I wipe away the tears.
I always have to be so strong, 
I have so many fears. 

Why don't I stand up for myself,
they think they draw a laugh.
Inside I'm crying out for help,
My life is worth just half.

I'm pounding on the walls so hard,
but no one seems to hear.
I want to get out very bad,
I'm trapped inside my fears.

I need you and I know you're there, 
I just need some advice.
To make this issue go away,
so I don't take my life. 

I pray someday I will be free,
no longer walk alone. 
I am determined to get there,
no longer locked alone.

By: Laura T.